But very few events in the life really “Stir” you – shake the basic foundation of your identity, beliefs and experiences.
Difference as per me – events that shake you – reaction/effect is more external – you get displaced , but stirred is when the internal churn happens, when you are compelled to question the basic fibers of your identity!
I can count the events that have stirred me, not sure whether to call these as blessings or curses but I definitely have come out a better person! They have compelled me to evolve , actually learn & imbibe the meanings of unconditional love and forgiving others. Well I guess forgiving is a wrong word – I actually learnt to lose this superiority complex that people are here to live their lives as per my expectations. They made me aware that everyone have their own journey and what they decide to do in their own lives is strictly THEIR OWN CHOICE … absolutely doesn’t matter any iota how closely entwined their lives are with me or if their choices would hurt me! That is purely MY OWN ISSUE! That is my choice on how much I want to control others lives and how much secure I am in my own being that someone else’s actions/choices can never be any reflection on – WHO & WHAT I AM!
But I think as true for any stirring process – it is difficult period… you have to resolve a lot of internal turmoil, a struggle between your mind & emotions and a roller-coaster of emotional turmoil. A lot of impurities surface out, it is complete murkiness till the things settle down. I have to deal with all the murky and dark emotions and believe me that is painful! Wish it could have been a easier process, but then I would have already reached that higher plane of spirituality and evolution. I am still struggling but has been quite an interesting struggle. It is really scary as well as interesting to face your inner demons and conquer them. Has its ups downs – at times I feel truly free & liberated and other time I am deep in dumps ready to cry my eyes out …..
I always felt that I am destiny’s favorite child . So truly believe that every experience in life is for a reason – to make me a better person, to help me evolve – nudge me towards a higher goal… So no regrets …. BRING ON…..SHAKE & STIR me …………. I love the internal churn
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