"I have found both freedom and safety in my madness; the freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us"
Happpppy Rakhi to all my amazing brothers …. one of my biggest treasure is the memories of growing up with you all … the fun times, teasing, tears, laughter, fights, silly games …… 😉
I know our lives have become busy so we may not have time to connect on more regular basis … but on this special day I want all of you to know that how blessed I feel to have your love and blessings in my life ….
and I know how happy you are to have an amazing sister like me 😉 —
What kind of people we have become …. what moral values we are raising our kids with???????? A women is openly molested … these sick people are common people like us!!!!!!!!!! Is this kind of people we are leaving our kids with?”
Happy birthday to a beautiful soul ……. who embraces life with its full vitality and brightens up my life by just being there …..
My biggest strength and my biggest weakness ………….
Wishing you a lifetime of happiness and bliss … May you get whatever your heart desires ……
Defination from Urban dictionary – social condition in which one twists every topic of conversation into one about him or herself.
Wow …. don’t we all have friends/relatives who have this syndrome …. no matter what the topic is – it always ends up about their experience!!!! I always thought these people don’t have sensitivity and empathy to understand other people’s point of view and their need to be listened to (atleast once in a while  .. lol). But now I have found a fancy name for this 🙂
Let Go …..detachments but not indifference. You detach yourself but still love like there is no one else. Being  able to bask in the love and care but not attaching yourself to an extent that other’s absence makes you question your own existence.
Difficult .yes, impossible – no! Over the years I have learnt to detach myself from most of the things and people in my life. This in no way means that I don’t love them or stopped caring for them. They are still the most important people in my life and I would be first to stand by them in difficult times. It means that I have tried to chart down my own existence, taken ownership of my own choices and learnt to accept that neither mine nor their lives revolve around one another. The relationship becomes an evolving one …… and continual changing one ….. synchronized to the changing beings. The stagnation that comes with attachment is what brings down any relationship.
Detachment doesn’t mean you stop caring. Actually it is going higher on the scale of caring. You stop caring just because you need that person, instead you start caring because you genuinely respect the person’s presence in your life and also respect that each one of us is individual with our own destinies and life paths. Respecting that we all are in each other’s paths because there was a soul agreement and that beyond that we all have our own journeys to complete and goals to accomplish.
“Train yourself to let go of the things you fear to lose”
“If the only prayer you ever say in your whole life is “thank you,” that would suffice.”
The memories of the day are still vivid in my memory and every time I wish for a different ending …. wishing we had not gone on that picnic, ……. Â
wishing we had not gone on that boating trip, ………..
wishing you had not decided to swim, …………….
wishing someone had stopped you …
wishing someone could have saved you …………..
wishing we could have done something …………
I don’t know how different our lives would have been had your life not snatched away from us and have so many what ifs …………..
You would have joined army….. no doubt would have had a distinguished service record … just wished I could have seen you in uniform  and felt so proud that I am related to you!
Always wondered who you would have married …. would you have fallen in love or mom & dad would have chosen someone for you (well looking at our family history later would have been quite unlikely 🙂 ). Where would you have met her? What fun your wedding would have been? What kind of person your wife would have been? How many children you would have had?
Where all you would have been posted and how many times we would have visited you?
Would mom and dad have been different had you been around?
Would we  have made different career choices had you been around to guide us?
Wish you were here with us to celebrate our successes and holding us in our failures.
Miss you …. and wishing you peace and happiness wherever you are … hopefully in next life we would meet again. ….. love you bhayia.
Reflections 